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| bomb songs! |
[Jun. 20th, 2005|08:52 pm] |
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| | um stuff! | ] |
GYM CLASS HEROES LYRICS
"Taxi Driver"
I took cutie for a ride in my deathcab
She tipped me with a kiss I dropped her off at the meth lab
Before she left she made a dashboard confessional
And spilled her guts in cursive but whats worse is
I could still see her bright eyes like sunny day real estate
Oh my and in a funny way it irritates
So high but no chance
My little chemical romance left a bad taste in my mouth
But I imposed her like hey mercedes why the long face
Why you cryin? theres no need
Just put on this coheed and fallout
Boy meets girl jimmy eat world
But Schlep eats pills till hes all out
Not once not twice she was thrice times a lady
Mackin on brand new, but I had to
Bounce over to the postal service to
Pick up these pills that take care of my nervousness
And all the way I saw planes that were mistooken for stars
She played games but she took em too far
At the drive in
Watching soft porn and you can tell
By the trail of the dead, that there was somethin in the popcorn
I hop in my cab destination midtown
Just to get up with some kids that like to get down
I'd made my rounds and that was that
In between the frowns and scraps and heart attacks
And I remember I seen her ass in early november
On a thursday takein back sunday for a refund
She shot a wink like no hard feelings
Then she jetted to brazil man them pills had me spun
This is the story of the year right here
This is hot water music
Put ya ramen into it |
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| drunk people are on the phone! |
[Jun. 19th, 2005|07:32 pm] |
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| | cynical | ] |
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| | boys night out | ] |
good:
green apple shmirnoff
warped tour comp. 2005
fires
window shopping
school gets out early
free warped tickets
secrets ;)
bad:
jealousy
girls who want my boy friend
lawyers
over-eating
stress
love |
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| white it out like glittering wa butterflies |
[Jun. 12th, 2005|03:00 pm] |
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| | the used | ] |
my weekend:
friday:walmart, then andy and bryan came over, we tried to go the playground, but i guess my dad thinks im inot gang-banging cuz 'going somewhere in the adrk with two boys turns him into a grandfather' um kay?
saturday:mall,target and walmart w/ jess then out w/ andy to hess, and foxboro to get bryan and cody. I got to see my first fireworks for the year! :) then i decided to be honest and tell my dad that i really didnt go to the movies, but it just turned into another fight and aparently 'driving around' with 3 guys consitutes being a slut. i got to wake up to that too with my mom asking why i dont hang out w/ girls. this is gay, i hung out with jess all day yesterday. w/e.
today:absolutly nothing, im supossed to be doing my history project, but uh, yeah not gona happen, id rather jsut sit around and relax before another day at school.
bad:no money,i really miss andy, bad grades, no job and im home
good:my hair, new clothes, i get to see andy tomorrow, i might get to go swimming! |
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| its times like these when scilence means everything and no one is to know about this |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|07:00 pm] |
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so life right now:
andy and are actually happy and this time im not gona watse my time on pettie little things, i mean i want to make it last but it is andy, so we'll see...im jumping in again, this time im leaving my eyes open
i ended up w/ billy's old bass lol...omg it sucks, but at lease it has strings(well two)
warped tour is going to be a bitch to get to, but as long as i get to go :)even though im gona have to start saving my money now :(
its madly hott and i cant take it
im failing out of school and i would start beting now on how long it takes before i join andy in the growing up way to fast reality of america
ive definetly chnaged, im alot more mellow, and it should help a lot w/ everything, but i feel like im heading fpor another break-down, so we'll see baou that too
okay so thats about it...not much drama, thank god, an di intend to keep it that way
<3rachel |
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|08:38 pm] |
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| | A7X | ] |
soo...um yeah crazy weekend
andy and i are going back out lol
IM GOING TO MEET THE MISFITS!!
OH MY FUCKING GOD!!
i am going to creme my fucking pants!
jons band is opeing up for them and he can gte me in and bcakstage! i am more than excited like u have NO idea
umm...met that scott kid finally, um he works at ECHO...hah yeadh dont think so... |
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| today |
[May. 22nd, 2005|08:33 pm] |
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| | mhmm... | ] |
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| | std: this is not an exit | ] |
today was a bomb day i def had LOTS of fun! :) ummm went to emilies mad early. she did my hair and it was so sexy...um then ian and ez came over we went to the rec n saw nick m. (that was intresting) um then went back to ems and had fun on the cloud. then bry-guy joined us and we went to barrows ville after ian left me :( went back to her house and ez got picked up then we got driven to my house and bryan stayed for a while...we heard from andy!! but im still really worried about him...then, well thats it.
i love my emo mix!! thank u emilie! and next time i babysit ure gona come visit danny lol
andy i really hope u stay in touch no matter what
im gettin my bass fixed thursday possibly...
and thats it, no oc to look foward to:( w/e ok ttyl
camping this week! can u say trashed?? hehe
<3 rachel |
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[May. 21st, 2005|08:15 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
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| | tbs | ] |
so today was an emilie day:) i went there, we did the english project and i play a goth (big surprize lol) then ian came over for a while adn we took some funny pictures lol....then he left and emile and i came here (next door) to babysit. so now were watching the incredibles and making fries :) lol and that my day. tomrrow will probably be the same.
im worried about andy. he didnt show up and no ones heard from him. i hope i see him soon.
everyone thinks im adam harts g/f, and im not i agreed to go out with him soemtime, like on a dtae, but i dont know him well enough to drag him into my drama and i really dont want to do that to him, cuz hes so innocent and it would ruin him. and i definetly would not want to do that to him. we'll see how it goes. if i like him then im getting rid of everyone else. but i def want to be friends.
so thats about it.and im getting better w/ the flaws, even without him :) |
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[May. 20th, 2005|06:50 pm] |
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your myspace friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) set a part of myself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from myspace
( ) been hxc dancing at a show
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
(x) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight. haha
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge [[a small one]]
(x) screamed penis in class
(x) ate dog/cat food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
( ) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
( ) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool |
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| oh what intresting poeple i choose to associate with |
[May. 20th, 2005|05:56 pm] |
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| | brand new ;) | ] |
kind of ironic how i've had many people ask me to hang out and yet i find myself with nothig to do but sit on livejournal... um ok so i give anyone permission to call/stop by i just have to be home at 8ish cuz andy is sleeping over...okay so um my number cuz i have a new one 622 1007 actually ive had that one but for soem reason people started soem trend where they like to call my parents line, so from now on 622 1007! lol...ok well ill be here, so come on over...
i need someone to make me a mix too:) whos up to it? |
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| die young and save yourself |
[May. 18th, 2005|07:06 pm] |
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| | hardcore stuff | ] |
so life sucks, but tahst nothing new
aparently guidence thinks im a druggie and im in danger of killing myself...um we all know im not sick enough to do that so uh, yeah w/e
but um i have been contelplating a night at the playground???
andy call me
ian call me...about sat
i love wayy too many of you lol, and i need to figure out plans for friday, why dont we all go to the mall so then its easier for me?? cuz everyone i need to hang with can make it there, so yeah its ounds good right?
kate:im glad everything turned out okay, and we should try to do something this weekend too, cuz i think it would be good to get to know u cuz u seem cool:)
love <3 rachel |
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| really good lyrics im def into right now |
[May. 15th, 2005|06:42 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | chicks digs guys that are queer, guys that dont dig chicks | ] |
hey angel i think your halo has a screw loose
Make a big scene Make this glass house my coffin You missed the big picture Well it’s the words that you’re coughing out on your sleeve So forge my sins here in song Well I’m telling you now what you’ve known all along And it’s tired, So true, More subtle than you There’s a lull in the stereo It’s calling for you Well I’m a slave to my vices (It’s true) They’ve all been renamed as a crutch So drag my name and my face through the mud Flattery can flatter me (Flattery can flatter me) Showing just how vicious you could be Do what you came here to do (Do what you came here to do) Trigger finger gets you pointed in the right direction My new found discretion It’s not a lie if you believe it It’s no mistake if it’s always repeated
It's not that I don't trust you well I just know what you've been up too and well this dial tone is agreeing with everything I've had in mind. so as his eyes move past your shoulder and your shades start moving in the same direction don't worry I, well I won't say a thing. and you can't blame a girl for (you can't blame a girl for) stickin' to what she knows..(stickin' to what she knows) I hope he takes his time and I hope he keeps your eyes closed tight I hope that when he leaves, you still smell him on your sheets cause I can, I can. if I could get to sleep then, I guess you could stop pretendin'. cause if I didn't think you loved it, well then I wouldn't play along it's cool cause I let you, thought I'd never catch you, you'd say "we're only friends." yeah, real good friends, I bet. I bet.
forget your legs around my hips. forget your hands pressed on my back. forget the letters that I kept. this is another I won't send. forget your lips, your eyes, your thighs. forget our one last kiss goodnight. forget me stakin' out your house. forget I've got you figured out. forget your legs around my hips. forget your hands pressed on my back. forget the letters that I kept. this is another I won't send
<3 rachel |
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[May. 13th, 2005|05:49 pm] |
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| |  discontent | ] |
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| | atreyu | ] |
so things havent been so great
-parents want to have a serious talk
-grounded
-grounded = no hanging out, so its kinda hard to get to know ian more
-i need to fix my flaws and i want his help
-i miss him, but hes out-and-about like everythings fine, somehow the fact that im going no where in life and im basiclly destorying myself, doesnt even matter when i fill my head up with him
...everything is falling apart and i want to be anywhere but here with no one but him.
It’s amazing how I can click through and watch the song titles change, and watch the pictures in my mind change with them. C.D.’s I listened to while knowing you bring me back to those days. Looking at pictures from months ago. But high school-time makes week’s equivalent to months and moths to years. How ironic how fast these helpless nights spent alone look well-after they’re done. But what happens when this is just all-too familiar. 2 years ago I would never guess half these things would have happened. Way too many firsts for my age. Just another Norton kid growing up too fast, hearing about and experiencing too many things. Going through heartbreak, jealousy, the pressure to fit in, depression, feeling helpless, alone, dependant, hopeless, having mood-swings, not knowing what to feel, drugs, sex, your reputation, all while trying to find your own way to deal and stick out while being exactly the same. And we get to do it all while being pushed trough our parent’s words who think they know. Yeah, they used to be like us, but every generation gets slightly harder to deal with. They want us to make life decisions as if we know what it’s all about, but parents are so contradicting. How can they expect his to do so, when they put us down with such phrases as ‘its for the best’ and ‘you’re too young to know what love is’ or ‘you’re too old for that, start planning your life’. If they could only realize how much they sound like their own parents and step back to see what they used o be like and know that they made it. Maybe they’d trust we know what to do. Maybe they’d get that it’s going to take some time to figure it out. |
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[May. 8th, 2005|06:07 pm] |
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| | jealous | ] |
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| | a7x...new cd in june! | ] |
you did this but i let you this is what livin like this does left with the regret that i never let you hold me back dont worry i hate me too but ive crawled home from worse than this i remember waiting for you to call i remember waiting there to find nothing at all
...just another broken hearted loser to make an excuse for another paragraph in your suicide note
so whos next? im even more torn, i have almost no heart left, this time it should be easier. it wont take that much energy to get to me now. such an easy target ive become...so would you like to take me on? |
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| well, its love, make it hurt |
[May. 7th, 2005|06:46 pm] |
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| | a7x | ] |
ok...so heres the options:
1 stick around with a, get more hurt and be with him while knowing it doesnt mean anything to him
2 get back with i, give him a chance,and for once start over while being smart enough to keep my distace for once
3 call m
4 leave i out of the drama, do nothing with a unless were officially together(promblem: wouldnt work cuz if im not giving it up i dont think hed stay, cuz he doesnt want me)
5 stay single. lead no one on, including myself.
i just dont know...its amazing how blind soem people are, or maybe just heartless cuz he knows; he'd just rather ignore it and let me down easy. even though its the hardest thing ever on my side.
oh what to do???
"never had a drink that i didnt like, got a taste of you threw up all night"
"these pains in my head have almost put me underground"
when will i listen?
<3 stupid little girl |
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[May. 3rd, 2005|05:45 pm] |
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'to all the little gilrs who think you have STDs' what the fuck. no one even ever said that we said we had STD's. we told our close friends ( or so we though are our close friends' that we thought it was sketchy that we both had mouth sores at the same time, so we were just wondering. we def. did not run around and try to spread it all over the place. why would we do that? i just dont get it! its just not going through my head. and its not getting trough my head how its any of ur biusness and to slander this all over the internet!i mean maybe if we did soemthing wrong to you you could claim this as revenge, but no neither of us has don nothing but be nice to you. and nver have we talked shit. so i just do not get this. but i do get that it needs to be stopped. its fucking retarded! |
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[May. 3rd, 2005|05:28 pm] |
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oh my fucking god...neither erin or i made up that we had herpes, who in there right mind who want to make that up for attemetion? why would anyone want that kind of attention? how does that even make the least bit of scence?? so heres the truth: NO ONE has anything. and if they do, its not me seeing how im A FUCKING VIRGIN! and fuck u all. i can not trust anyone in this town. i just get lied to left and right. oh but im just a 'stupid little girl'. fuck you. its amazing how many people cant keep their mouth shut in this town. what the hell is so wrong w/ minding your own buisness!? |
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[Apr. 30th, 2005|08:56 pm] |
 | You scored as Romantic Kisser. Good for you! You know how to kiss and hopefully you have a certain someone to experience a serge of happiness with. If not, it doesnt hurt to flirt kiss a little hehe. Just dont get carried away. Romantic kissing is always a plus! Kissing is an art keep it up and youll be really good!
Romantic Kisser | | 100% | Yippy Ki Yay! | | 75% | Dont quit your day job... | | 38% | </td>
How good do you kiss?
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idk...do u think so?
 | You scored as Lip Piercing. You little punkass kid, get off my freaking lawn! And stop making the rent-a-cops chase after you in the mall! And stop smoking pot during lunch! Youth these days...
Lip Piercing | | 90% | Labret Piercing | | 90% | Tongue Piercing | | 90% | Nipples | | 90% | Cartilage Piercing | | 70% | Dirty Piercings | | 70% | Belly Button Piercing | | 60% | Earlobe Piercing | | 40% | Nose Piercing | | 30% | </td>
What Piercing Are You?
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haha def me 0:)
cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td> </td><td> You scored as Save Me - Unwritten Law. You are "Save Me" by Unwritten Law! "You can't save me, You can't change me" You've done things in your life that you can't let go of. You are your own person, you are very caring, and it's not surprising to hear you say "I'll do what I want."
Save Me - Unwritten Law | | 95% | Feeling This - Blink 182 | | 90% | Helena - My Chemical Romance | | 90% | You're So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday | | 85% | Too Far Gone - All American Rejects | | 85% | Minority - Green Day | | 85% | Cute without the 'E' - Taking Back Sunday | | 80% | Buried a Lie - Senses Fail | | 80% | Home - Three Days Grace | | 75% | You know what they do to guys like us in prison - My Chemical Romance | | 75% | Burnout - Green Day | | 60% | The Middle - Jimmy Eat World | | 55% | Work - Jimmy Eat World | | 50% | </td></tr>
What emo/rock song are you?
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hahomfg this one is sooo true |
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| i die trying just to keep myself rom kissing you |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|10:49 am] |
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| | not sure of anything anmore | ] |
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| | brand new ;) | ] |
yeah last night was awesome..lots to talk about but heres the highlights:
got drunk
almost died driving in a car with drunk andy and no brakes
made-out with andy, erin and ashley
saw two boys make-out
ended my period! like an hour to the perfect time :) (hehe captian)
zipper with jess
heathers house
J.D.
cumby's where i got to see amy and scott:) and get a lesson on star wars
umm...the best part of the night was on the way home
...the long way
ok so toady...ian's play with emilie...and i was supossed to hang w/ andy b4 but idk...i miss you and we need to talk |
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[Apr. 28th, 2005|07:18 pm] |
bored as hell.
i really need to know plans for tommorrow...cuz i need to know hwne to start drinking...
i hope im not bleeding
u owe me and u know who u are :)
i love u all...
NUMB.
to all this bullshit.
dont care anymore |
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| still waiting for a good day, i think ive held this long enough, i think its safe tell u something |
[Apr. 25th, 2005|08:50 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
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| | my share of brand new and straylight urn songs has come agin | ] |
i thinkim beging to like ian.
but then agina im probably just reaching for the nearst thing. and i dont want to do that to someone...im really not the type to go out an dtry to destroy people...
but im reallly kinda still wrapped up with someone else. well actually like 2 people but ive learned to live with one of them and be my best around him.
the other...well he knows it but unforunatly for me he wont do anything about it...and i really dont know why im still pinning over him, but everyone says were perfect for eachother, and i really wish it could just be that...
so...ill sit on the sidelines and wait for the next best oppertunity...w/e
so you love a challenge...so you love the chase...so ill give you one...im used to the sidelines but ive never watched in this case...ive never givin up on you, i never would...nows your chance to let me know what i should do |
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